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第55章

I slept none that Night;the farther I was from the Occasion of my Fright,the greater my Apprehensions were,which is something contrary to the Nature of such Things,and especially to the usual Practice of all Creatures in Fear:But I was so embarrass'd with my own frightful Ideas of the Thing,that I form'd nothing but dismal Imaginations to my self,even tho' I was now a great way off of it. Sometimes I fancy'd it must be the Devil;and Reason joyn'd in with me upon this Supposition:For how should any other Thing in human Shape come into the Place? Where was the Vessel that brought them? What Marks was there of any other Footsteps? And how was it possible a Man should come there? But then to think that Satan should take human Shape upon him in such a Place where there could be no manner of Occasion for it,but to leave the Print of his Foot behind him,and that even for no Purpose too,for he could not be sure I should see it;this was an Amusement the other Way;I consider'd that the Devil might have found out abundance of other Ways to have terrify'd me than this of the single Print of a Foot. That as I liv'd quite on the other Side of the Island,he would never have been so simple to leave a Mark in a Place where 'twas Ten Thousand to one whether I should ever see it Or not,and in the Sand too,which the first Surge of the Sea upon a high Wind would have defac'd entirely:All this seem'd inconsistent with the Thing it self,and with all the Notions we usually entertain of the Subtilty of the Devil.

Abundance of such Things as these assisted to argue me out' of all Apprehensions of its being the Devil:And I presently concluded then,that it must be some more dangerous Creature,(viz.) That it must be some of the Savages of the main Land over-against me,who had wander'd out to Sea in their Canoes;and either driven by the Currents,or by contrary Winds had made the Island;and had been on Shore,but were gone away again to Sea,being as loth,perhaps,to have stay'd in this desolate Island,as I would have been to have had them.

While these Reflections were rowling upon my Mind,I was very thankful in my Thoughts,that I was so happy as not to be thereabouts at that Time,or that they did not see my Boat,by which they would have concluded that some Inhabitants had been in the Place,and perhaps have search'd farther for me:Then terrible Thoughts rack'd my Imagination about their having found my Boat,and that there were People here;and that if so,I should certainly have them come again in greater Numbers,and devour me;that if it should happen so that they should not find me,yet they would find my Enclosure,destroy all my Corn,carry away all my Flock of tame Goats,and I should perish at last for meer Want.

Thus my Fear banish'd all my religious Hope;all that former Confidence in God which was founded upon such wonderful Experience as I had had of his Goodness,now vanished,as if he that had fed me by Miracle hitherto,could not preserve by his Power the Provision which he had made for me by his Goodness:I reproach'd my self with my Easiness,that would not sow any more Corn one Year than would just serve me till the next Season,as if no Accident could intervene to prevent my enjoying the Crop that was upon the Ground;and this I thought so just a Reproof,that I resolv'd for the future to have two or three Years Corn beforehand,so that whatever might come,I might not perish for want of Bread.

How strange a Chequer Work of Providence is the Life of Man! and by what secret differing Springs are the Affections hurry'd about as differing Circumstance present To Day we love what to Morrow we hate;to Day we seek what to Morrow we shun;to Day we desire what to Morrow we fear;nay even tremble at the Apprehensions of;this was exemplify'd in me at this Time in the most lively Manner imaginable;for I whose only Affliction was,that I seem'd banished from human Society,that I was alone,circumscrib'd by the boundless Ocean,cut off from Mankind,and condemn'd to what I call'd silent Life;that I was as one who Heaven thought not worthy to be number'd among the Living,or to appear among the rest of his Creatures;that to have seen one of my own Species,would have seem'd to me a Raising me from Death to Life,and the greatest Blessing that Heaven it self,next to the supreme Blessing of Salvation,could bestow;I say,that I should now tremble at the very Apprehensions of seeing a Man,and was ready to sink into the Ground at but the Shadow or silent Appearance of a Man's having set his Foot in the Island.

Such is the uneven State of human Life:And it afforded me a great many curious Speculations afterwards,when I had a little recover'd my first Surprize;I consider'd that this was the Station of Life the infinitely wise and good Providence of God had determin'd for me,that as I could not foresee what the Ends of Divine Wisdom might be in all this,so I was not to dispute his Sovereignty,who,as I was his Creature,had an undoubted Right by Creation to govern and dispose of me absolutely as he thought fit;and who,as I was a Creature who had offended him,had likewise a judicial Right to condemn me to what Punishment he thought fit;and that it was my Part to submit to bear his Indignation,because I had sinn'd against him.

I then reflected that God,who was not only Righteous but Onmipotent,as he had thought fit thus to punish and afflict me,so he was able to deliver me;that if he did not think fit to do it,'twas my unquestion'd Duty to resign my self absolutely and entirely to his Will;and on the other Hand,it was my Duty also to hope in him,pray to him,and quietly to attend the Dictates and Directions of his daily Providence.

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