"For to him that is joined to all the living there is hope; for a living dog is better than a dead lion.
"For the living know that they shall die; but the dead know not anything, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten.
"Also their love, and their hatred, and their envy, is now perished;neither have they any more a portion forever in anything that is done under the sun.""There you have it, Hump," he said, closing the book upon his finger and looking up at me."The Preacher who was king over Israel in Jerusalem thought as I think.You call me a pessimist.Is not this pessimism of the blackest? -- `All is vanity and vexation of spirit,' `There is no profit under the sun,' `There is one event unto all,' to the fool and the wise, the clean and the unclean, the sinner and the saint, and that event is death, and an evil thing, he says.For the Preacher loved life, and did not want to die, saying, `For a living dog is better than a dead lion.'
He preferred the vanity and vexation to the silence and unmovableness of the grave.And so I.To crawl is piggish; but to not crawl, to be as the clod and rock, is loathsome to contemplate.It is loathsome to the life that is in me, the very essence of which is movement, the power of movement, and the consciousness of the power of movement.Life itself is unsatisfaction, but to look ahead to death is greater unsatisfaction.""You are worse off than Omar," I said."He, at least, after the customary agonizing of youth, found content and made of his materialism a joyous thing.""Who was Omar?" Wolf Larsen asked, and I did no more work that day, nor the next, nor the next.
In his random reading he had never chanced upon the Rub iy t, and it was to him like a great find of treasure.Much I remembered, possibly two-thirds of the quatrains, and I managed to piece out the remainder without difficulty.
We talked for hours over single stanzas, and I found him reading into them a wail of regret and a rebellion which, for the life of me, I could not discover myself.Possibly recited with a certain joyous lilt which was my own, for, -- his memory was good, and at a second rendering, very often the first, he made a quatrain his own, -- he recited the same lines and invested them with an unrest and passionate revolt that was well-nigh convincing.
I was interested as to which quatrain he would like best, and was not surprised when he hit upon the one born of an instant's irritability, and quite at variance with the Persian's complacent philosophy and genial code of life: --"What, without asking, hither hurried Whence?
And, without asking, Whither hurried hence!
Oh, many a Cup of this forbidden Wine Must drown the memory of that insolence!""Great!" Wolf Larsen cried."Great! That's the keynote.Insolence! He could not have used a better word."In vain I objected and denied.He deluged me, overwhelmed me with argument.
"It's not the nature of life to be otherwise.Life, when it knows that it must cease living, will always rebel.It cannot help itself.The Preacher found life and the works of life all a vanity and vexation, an evil thing;but death, the ceasing to be able to be vain and vexed, he found an eviler thing.Through chapter after chapter he is worried by the one event that cometh to all alike.So Omar, so I, so you, even you, for you rebelled against dying when Cooky sharpened a knife for you.You were afraid to die; the life that was in you, that composes you, that is greater than you, did not want to die.You have talked of the instinct of immortality.
I talk of the instinct of life, which is to live, and which, when death looms near and large, masters the instinct, so called, of immortality.
It mastered it in you (you cannot deny it), because a crazy Cockney cook sharpened a knife.
"You are afraid of him now.You are afraid of me.You cannot deny it.
If I should catch you by the throat, thus," -- his hand was about my throat and my breath was shut off, -- "and began to press the life out of you, thus, and thus, your instinct of immortality will go glimmering, and your instinct of life, which is longing for life, will flutter up, and you will struggle to save yourself.Eh? I see the fear of death in your eyes.You beat the air with your arms.You exert all your puny strength to struggle to live.Your hand is clutching my arm, lightly it feels as a butterfly resting there.Your chest is heaving, your tongue protruding, your skin turning dark, your eyes swimming.`To live! To live! To live!' you are crying; and you are crying to live here and now, not hereafter.You doubt your immortality, eh? Ha! Ha! You are not sure of it.You won't chance it.This life only you are certain is real.Ah, it is growing dark and darker.It is the darkness of death, the ceasing to be, the ceasing to feel, the ceasing to move, that is gathering about you, descending upon you, rising around you.Your eyes are becoming set.They are glazing.My voice sounds faint and far.You cannot see my face.And still you struggle in my grip.You kick with your legs.Your body draws itself up in knots like a snake's.Your chest heaves and strains.To live! To live! To live -- "I heard no more.Consciousness was blotted out by the darkness he had so graphically described, and when I came to myself I was lying on the floor and he was smoking a cigar and regarding me thoughtfully with that old familiar light of curiosity in his eyes.
"Well, have I convinced you?" he demanded."Here, take a drink of this.
I want to ask you some questions."
I rolled my head negatively on the floor."Your arguments are too --er -- forcible," I managed to articulate, at cost of great pain to my aching throat.
"You'll be all right in half an hour," he assured me."And promise Iwon't use any more physical demonstrations.Get up now.You can sit on a chair."And, toy that I was of this monster, the discussion of Omar and the Preacher was resumed.And half the night we sat up over it.
