THE sky was overcast with low-hanging clouds, and though it was light enough to see the cart-ruts winding along the road, still to the right and left no separate object could be distinguished, everything blending together into dark, heavy masses.It was a dim, unsettled kind of night; the wind blew in terrific gusts, bringing with it the scent of rain and wheat, which covered the broad fields.When they passed the oak which served as a signpost and turned down a by-road, driving became more difficult, the narrow track being quite lost at times.The coach moved along at a slower pace.
"I hope we're not going to lose our way!" Nejdanov remarked; he had been quite silent until then.
"I don't think so," Markelov responded."Two misfortunes never happen in one day.""But what was the first misfortune?"
"A day wasted for nothing.Is that of no importance?""Yes...certainly...and then this Golushkin! We shouldn't have drank so much wine.My head is simply splitting.""I wasn't thinking of Golushkin.We got some money from him at any rate, so our visit wasn't altogether wasted.""But surely you're not really sorry that Paklin took us to his.
..what did he call them...poll-parrots?
"As for that, there's nothing to be either sorry or glad about.
I'm not interested in such people.That wasn't the misfortune Iwas referring to."
"What was it then?"
Markelov made no reply, but withdrew himself a little further into his corner, as if he were muffling himself up.Nejdanov could not see his face very clearly, only his moustache stood out in a straight black line, but he had felt ever since the morning that there was something in Markelov that was best left alone, some mysteriously unknown worry.
"I say, Sergai Mihailovitch," Nejdanov began, "do you really attach any importance to Mr.Kisliakov's letters that you gave me today? They are utter nonsense, if you'll excuse my saying so."Markelov drew himself up.
"In the first place," he began angrily, "I don't agree with you about these letters--I find them extremely interesting...and conscientious! In the second place, Kisliakov works very hard and, what is more, he is in earnest; he BELIEVES in our cause, believes in the revolution! And I must say that you, Alexai Dmitritch, are very luke-warm--YOU don't believe in our cause!""What makes you think so? " Nejdanov asked slowly.
"It is easy to see from your very words, from your whole behaviour.Today, for instance, at Golushkin's, who said that he failed to see any elements that we could rely on? You! Who demanded to have them pointed out to him? You again! And when that friend of yours, that grinning buffoon, Mr.Paklin, stood up and declared with his eyes raised to heaven that not one of us was capable of self-sacrifice, who approved of it and nodded to him encouragingly? Wasn't it you? Say what you like of yourself.
..think what you like of yourself, you know best...that is your affair, but I know people who could give up everything that is beautiful in life--even love itself--to serve their convictions, to be true to them! Well, YOU...couldn't have done that, today at any rate!""Today? Why not today in particular?"
"Oh, don't pretend, for heaven's sake, you happy Don Juan, you myrtle-crowned lover!" Markelov shouted, quite forgetting the coachman, who, though he did not turn round on the box, must have heard every word.It is true the coachman was at that moment more occupied with the road than with what the gentlemen were saying behind him.He loosened the shaft-horse carefully, though somewhat nervously, she shook her head, backed a little, and went down a slope which had no business there at all.
"I'm afraid I don't quite understand you," Nejdanov observed.
Markelov gave a forced, malicious laugh.
"So you don't understand me! ha, ha, ha! I know everything, my dear sir! I know whom you made love to yesterday, whom you've completely conquered with your good looks and honeyed words! Iknow who lets you into her room...after ten o'clock at night!""Sir!" the coachman exclaimed suddenly, turning to Markelov, "hold the reins, please.I'll get down and have a look.I think we've gone off the track.There seems a sort of ravine here."The carriage was, in fact, standing almost on one side.Markelov seized the reins which the coachman handed to him and continued just as loudly:
"I don't blame you in the least, Alexai Dmitritch! You took advantage of....You were quite right.No wonder that you're not so keen about our cause now...as I said before, you have something else on your mind.And, really, who can tell beforehand what will please a girl's heart or what man can achieve what she may desire?""I understand now," Nejdanov began; "I understand your vexation and can guess...who spied on us and lost no time in letting you know--"It does not seem to depend on merit," Markelov continued, pretending not to have heard Nejdanov, and purposely drawling out each word in a sing-song voice, "no extraordinary spiritual or physical attractions....Oh no! It's only the damned luck of all...bastards!"The last sentence Markelov pronounced abruptly and hurriedly, but suddenly stopped as if turned to stone.
Nejdanov felt himself grow pale in the darkness and tingled all over.He could scarcely restrain himself from flying at Markelov and seizing him by the throat."Only blood will wipe out this insult," he thought.
"I've found the road!" the coachman cried, making his appearance at the right front wheel, " I turned to the left by mistake--but it doesn't matter, we'll soon be home.It's not much farther.Sit still, please!"He got onto the box, took the reins from Markelov, pulled the shaft-horse a little to one side, and the carriage, after one or two jerks, rolled along more smoothly and evenly.The darkness seemed to part and lift itself, a cloud of smoke could be seen curling out of a chimney, ahead some sort of hillock, a light twinkled, vanished, then another....A dog barked.
